Can't Say Your Name

I can't say your name
'Cause I know it will bring me so much pain
I can't close my eyes
I just know it will make me realize
That I want you here
Though I know you'll never be near
I can't say your name
As it brings me so much pain

I can't even talk
When I try to speak my jaw just locks
I can't comprehend
How someone I love is just my friend
Nights are so alone
Wish I could just call you on the phone
But I couldn't talk
'Cause if I tried to speak my jaw would lock

Why do I go through this
For something that will never be?
Why I do this to myself
While you live life so happily?
I can't even think of you
Can't say your name
I cry so hard
It brings me so much pain

I can't fall asleep
'Cause even in my dreams I can't compete
He's what's on your mind
And I'm just a thought that's left behind
I don't understand
How you say you can't find a real good man
But if I fall asleep
In my dreams I'm just the man you need

I can't be your friend
'Cause it'll be a while 'til my heart mends
I can't face myself
When I look in the mirror, my soul it melts
Don't know what I'll do
It will be hard but I'll try to get through
But I can't be your friend
'Cause it'll take so long for me to mend

Why do I go through this
For something that will never be?
Why I do this to myself
While you live life so happily?
I can't even think of you
Can't say your name
I cry so hard
It brings me so much pain

I can't say your name
'Cause I know I don't deserve the pain
I can't see myself
Living life wishing I was someone else
Hope he's what you dreamed of
'Cause you just lost my undying love
I can't sing this song...

Lyrics by Paul Little (2001)